Seventy-One Days

Over the past 6 months, I've been doing a lot of rebuilding. And I'm extremely proud of how far I've come to regain myself. Had someone told me April 2010 that within a year I'd be whole again; thriving rather than surviving without the use of medication or human voodoo dolls, I probably wouldn't have believed them, or, would have been in a complete panic about what that year would have entailed.

Now I'm here. And I love it here. But recently, with the rebuilding going so well, the Divine has started raising the bar and throwing signs at me from every direction that the foundation is ready for some additions. It's time to add on to the structure, to make it better, to start knocking down walls and to give everything a fresh coat of paint. It's time to take life to another gear!

About six weeks ago, I started writing again. Not these epic life changing polished works of brilliance, but just ramblings from whenever. It was missing in my life, so I brought it back. I've also started putting it out there, unpolished and imperfect, for the world's eyes. That's been a sore point throughout my life. I'm working on it though. I'm starting to casually reconnect with art as well. I'm going to museums more, I want to try my hand at painting or making my own jewelry. Maybe photography.

A week or two ago I started feeling overwhelmed and I also promised to do one thing every day that I'd been putting off, to make progress one day at a time. My apartment is coming along, I did my taxes, and my car is finally up to date on all its maintenance. It's even clean! I've started a Don't Sweat the Small Stuff journal to identify triggers that still cause anxiety, a deep dive I've never even been in a place to attempt really. Mentally and spiritually things are coming along.

Also about a week or two ago, two skinny co-workers invited me on their "Biggest Winner" team (it's a terrible name, terrible, I'm aware) because they want to do it for fun and need a third person. I was just saying not two weeks prior that that's exactly what I needed, some kind of game to give me a shove to learn to ride a bike or get ready to run the charity 5k I've always wanted to do. Still I wondered if it was the right decision though, to make it a competition, to put structure to improving my physicality. This morning I had a well timed (another sign) health screen at work. I aced it! I was told there that there's a lifestyle questionnaire too and that if I filled it out it would tell me all this great health information and I'd score a 50 dollar gift card. Sweet! I was blatantly honest. It was too. If I don't start making some changes, healthy now or not, I'm not getting old. And I really want to get old. Like feeding pigeons from a park bench wrapped in an Afghan in the Summertime before my 4:00 pm late dinner OLD. Because, after all, what's the alternative?

So over the next 71 days (or more, either way), I'm going to make my first commitment the renovation and improvement of my mind, body and soul. I'm going to also blog about all the random stuff that comes my way and try to include one thing everyday that's going to help me get where I want to go. Today, I did my health screening. I know where the baseline is, and even though I'm a well oiled machine, it's only going to get better.

I hope you'll follow along on my journey. Maybe you'll pay along at home. Let me know if you blog about it too! I can use the inspiration!

Share your Divinity,

Kimberly